man....its a day before christmas eve...and my brother and i got in a hugeeeeeeeeee fight................its so wierd.........this christmas i thought would be one of the best christmas's////dude i was so wrong........list of reasons why this is the worst christmas of them all
1. parents fully divorced mom lives 20 hours away and i dont get to see her for christmas
2.Dad and i argue a lot
3.brother and i argue a lot
4.i am single and havent truly been inlove for the longest time and around xmas season that sucks
5.this christmas is retarted and i just cant wait tillthe new year comes
okay enough bitching....regardless of all this stuff going on its wierd...i still feel pretty content with life and i dont know why, maybe its just me maturing and realizing that i cant sweat the small stuff but whats even more wierd is i dont majorillyyyyyyyyy sweat the big stuff........Im content with a lot of things and i feel like this part of my life even though its the hardest ive ever gone through...i can handle it better than i ever did a couple of years back.............no matter whatim going to keep on striving for my dreams and not get side tracked like most people do with gay shit like drugs or constantly drinking or any of that...instead i focus on working out...reading,trying to help other people out with problems...nooo im not no mother teresa its just i realize for all the stuff that im going through theres probably a billion people that are going through way worse problems...and thats why i still keep a smile on my face.........cause i hate hanging out with negative people so why be negative..............letttss focus on great things going on in life
1. im happy with myself...noo not conceited but just happy with who i am and wont change it for no one or nothing
2.i actually know what i want to do career wise now...and that gets me so excited cause i totally wanna secure my kids a good future and dont need to rely on a guy for that.
3. Ive made even more awesome friends over this past year, andmet some great people.
anyways im signing out....loveee prisssyyy