You are viewing sweety29

sweety29's Journal
 
[Most Recent Entries] [Calendar View] [Friends]

Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in sweety29's LiveJournal:

    Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
    6:29 pm
    omg like what an idiot i am
    this is so fucked up.......me being the idiot i am...cut off dating this guy just cause he didnt call or is super shy...what the hell........he is just amazing and im pushing him away since im a dumbass......

    ever since being hurt before and the crash of my parents marriage, its sooo hard to let someone in...and for once...this guy actually seemed like he gave two shits.....sometimes doesnt show it but still...............and now i probably hurt him....and i feel like shit cause he doesnt realize how much i care for him and how much i truly like him....he doesnt even realize.............like at the club i spent the whole night by his side cause whenever im around him i feel happy............but nooo priscilla goes and screws it up like an idiot....why why why?!?!?..........i dont care what anyone says or thinks about him...i care for him...he may be quiet and shy but i truly think hes amazing...hes the first guy i truly care for.........im so stupid i swear.......good going priss...goodddd going fucking idiot
    Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
    12:39 am
    my new years story
    you know when you are having a day or go to a party where you think its going to be the shits?......I truly thought this is what would happen on new years...nothing was going right this chick i completely disliked showed up ..we got in an argument and i felt like slapping her haha but im just not a fighter...anyways new years rang in...didnt kiss anyone cause they are all like brothers but then this guy showed up that i know..........and everything just seemed perfect......my eyes lit up.....and i felt happy......i thought i would never feel like this again......never remotely think a guy was cool or semi like a guy again..but he showed up and ifelt....just so content with everything..we then later left and went to his friends house.......and all went in the sauna .......then everyone wentto bed...and this guy and i stayed up talking for a few hours straight..about everything...life....family..friends..goals......it felt great.....it felt like this past year...everything that went wrong...it worked into something......maybe this was just a guy i had 3 hours of happiness with or maybe.....it might turn into something..i dont know.....im just so confused....all day today ive thought about him.....talking tohim looking at him...just gives me butterflies.....he is honestly the nicest person and has a heart of gold.....he has so much charisma and joy and i felt like a giddy little school girl again...........its time i open up to the thoughts of another guy and quit shadowing myself and confining myself from caring from someone even though i was hurt in the past.....cause he in my eyes is just perfect....hes into sports he doesnt do drugs hes fit hes got a smile that lights up a room..........this is so surreal.......last week i was thinking i wouldnt meet anything like this and be single and stuff for the next couple of years...but i met him...and he changed my outlook...why is it i just met this person and if eel a chemistry so huge....................i dont know................but i guess ill see where it takes me
    Saturday, December 24th, 2005
    1:53 pm
    1 day before xmas omggg!
    k its one day before christmassssssssssssss yayyy...im gonna go to sleep then SANTAS gonna come haha jkjk
    anyways lastnight was funny i had to go pick my dad up at the bar so i walkedin to look for him and sat down with him for awhile and these group of people thought i was his girlfriend like EWWWWW HELLOOOO my dad is 52 and even though he looks young for his age that is still NASTY...OMg ewwww im only turning 19..haha anyways i drove him home then cleaned and cleaned until 2 am cause im aneat freak then fell asleep and woke up with the worsttt sore throat.....so i drank neocitron and ran on the treadmill now i feel fine....but anyways thats my rant of the day

    _priss
    Friday, December 23rd, 2005
    4:41 pm
    grrr
    man....its a day before christmas eve...and my brother and i got in a hugeeeeeeeeee fight................its so wierd.........this christmas i thought would be one of the best christmas's////dude i was so wrong........list of reasons why this is the worst christmas of them all

    1. parents fully divorced mom lives 20 hours away and i dont get to see her for christmas
    2.Dad and i argue a lot
    3.brother and i argue a lot
    4.i am single and havent truly been inlove for the longest time and around xmas season that sucks
    5.this christmas is retarted and i just cant wait tillthe new year comes

    okay enough bitching....regardless of all this stuff going on its wierd...i still feel pretty content with life and i dont know why, maybe its just me maturing and realizing that i cant sweat the small stuff but whats even more wierd is i dont majorillyyyyyyyyy sweat the big stuff........Im content with a lot of things and i feel like this part of my life even though its the hardest ive ever gone through...i can handle it better than i ever did a couple of years back.............no matter whatim going to keep on striving for my dreams and not get side tracked like most people do with gay shit like drugs or constantly drinking or any of that...instead i focus on working out...reading,trying to help other people out with problems...nooo im not no mother teresa its just i realize for all the stuff that im going through theres probably a billion people that are going through way worse problems...and thats why i still keep a smile on my face.........cause i hate hanging out with negative people so why be negative..............letttss focus on great things going on in life

    1. im happy with myself...noo not conceited but just happy with who i am and wont change it for no one or nothing
    2.i actually know what i want to do career wise now...and that gets me so excited cause i totally wanna secure my kids a good future and dont need to rely on a guy for that.
    3. Ive made even more awesome friends over this past year, andmet some great people.

    anyways im signing out....loveee prisssyyy
    12:11 am
    lllifeee
    Hmmmmm yayy i love journals.. i get to write about what makes me happy what pisses me off blablabla...all that stuff

    anyways........WOW its almost christmas...and this christmas is just so different...i have truly realized....now im an adult...by the time next christmas comes ill be moved out living my life full on in realty and completely different.......lifes going by sooo fasssttttttttttttt i cant believe it.....I always used to wish i was older....always dreamed of becoming older and more independant...and all that...but now that i am older...it sucks....Sometimes i wish i was that little girl who used to play barbies and watch mr dressup and was a little tomboy.....now im knocking on 19 years old and then 20 then 30 then ill be a pruned up old woman hahaha anyways im gonna make this journal extra long...cause i have been thinking about a lot lately so im gonna make a list of alllll that i am and all that i want to do:

    Future: want to get in the U.B.C real estate program then get my real estate license...advertise build clientelle and make good bling

    health wise: ...i am an idiot.........i smoked for 2 in a half months after my parents got divorced and last week i realized.. what the hell am i doinggg...chucked it down and havent looked back. still keeping up my cardio and health.

    Guy wise:..why is everyyyy guy that likes me has to be the most shallow sack of ass out there????..........i dont get it...i never meet a guy who just wants me for me...of course sex and blablalla come into the future...but i always meet guys who are like OOO lets do it...i realize guys need that shit cause they are boys ya know.....but all i want is for someone who cares more about love and the little things...and cuddling and kissing and that stuff and nice love letters.....i dont care if he hasa mcdonalds salary and is going no where future wise all i care is that he thinks im the bestest of the best and loves me more than anyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyythingggggggggggggg.ahh scrue it ill just stay single....guys are headcases.


    anyways common lets move on a lighter note... ITS ALMOST XMASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!...yay:D........i cant wait but ill probably be stuck playing barbies with my neice on christmas eve which is okay cause shes adorable and i love her...:) yay

    enough typing my fingers are getting sore haha...nighttt:)

    Current Mood: calm
About LiveJournal.com